No matter what, I'm never gonna let you go. And I hope you'd do the same too.

Seriously, don't give a fuck about someone who doesn't give a fuck about you.

I'm not sure if I can still bring a smile to your face in future. Happy 100th day.

Genie in the bottle

I always screw things up. I tend to push people away. All the time. Late night like this, here I am lying in my bed, listening to music and blogging with my iPhone. I feel like a freaking piece of mess. I don't give in sometimes, or most of the times. Sometimes, they say it'll reflect how much the other party really cares. I know everyone gets tired, everyone will walk away. The voices in my head say the most awful things. Words that I don't mean, thoughts which I overthink. I can be optimistic for others but for myself, I always think of the worst fucked up things ever. Overly pessimistic towards myself. This is one of the nights that I screwed up something again. I don't know what I really what. I'm afraid. Am I seeing the shadows of my past haunting me. That very idiotically stubborn self. Am I still the very same person as I used to be. Am I really ready for all these... Am I able to give happiness or misery. I lost abit of my confidence. My bad. I start to fantasize, to dream, and I get greedy. I don't know where I can vent all these terrible feelings. I don't wna spam fb tumblr or twitter. Neither do I wna spam here too much with all the terrible things I said. It wasn't that bad just now. I guess I screwed it up again. I become harsh, harsh and harsher. I guess I'd have to be a genie in a bottle. I'll keep it to myself. Me myself and I.

Why do all the good things come to an end?

I'm upset and I don't know what I wanna do with my life. It's like I'm never good enough for anything. Seriously, fuck this shit. Maybe I'm just pms-ing, school and all the shit.

Still the same after years

Went Kbox @ Scape on a Saturday after my tuition. Met them at 2.50pm and I rushed down cause I was running late. We booked online at 3 and everyone was late except Yixi who was the earliest. Both Melvin and Vincent were late.... Like seriously? Aren't guys ought to be punctual and appear more gentlemanly. Ugh. And by the time we checked in it was 3.30pm. Online deposit was forfeited. And they actually didn't take down the online reference number and all the crap. So we were delayed by 10 more minutes. Okay enough of complaining about the check-in, we still have some fun. Tho there was still some shit that happened. Haven sang with them for a year! That's really long. After Kbox we took so long to decide for dinner. And eventually we still end up in KFC. Some simple catching-up session with old friends. And by the way I wanna add that: I love to sing more and more and I still love singing with BACON best. He's DABOOMZ. He makes me melt whenever he sings to me♥ Heh. And people, there's no expiry date for music.

Why are you so lovable

Back to JC days

This was some random day we went back to IJC. Cause I wanted to experience being in the same JC as Tan Ching Hern. Hehe and upon wearing back my uniform, mummy said I looked just the same as 3 years ago, when I'm 17. Heh. My mum was laughing at my craziness and thanks baby for going crazy with me. 1 off our to-do-list♥ So we went there for lunch. Sadly most of the stores were doing their closing. Only Chinese cooked food left :( I wanted my Phai Thai or Indian Muslim store. Awww. After lunch we studied for some time in the canteen. Btw, all the guys, I meant, gina, are so thin, frail and kiddy zzz. My Bacon's the MAN. LOL. Before we head down to bugis for shopping... We gotta walked to CWP, its a must to get my fav fries from 515. Soggggggggy... good!

The crazy ba-chor-mee most loyal No.1 fan

Finally satisfied my craving for PIZZZZZZZZZA♥

Maggie Moo ice-cream.

Btw, I hereby declare that Cold Stone Creamery is my official fav ice-cream ever. It beats all other ice-cream! He said that he've spoilt me. I beg to differ- its just -sticking to my choice-and this way, it can stop my ice-cream binge. Everything is under controlled. Hope My cheeks slim down please. I ♥ ♥ ♥ Cold Stone and of cause I have to eat this with my boy. Girls can. Boys- ONLY HIM^^

It's Friday, Friday

I like this picture so nicey

Camwhoring in the library...Lol

Lol. Act cute. Imitating Huan's pose.

Leaving the best few picture for the last......

MY MACHO MAN. HOHOHO

Someone please tell me why is he so cuteeeeee

This is just so ♥MAD CUTE♥ that I'd to enlarge it.
 

Sesame paste (cold) and herbal jelly. It's my first time eating sesame paste i think? Cause normally when mummy feed me I'll REJECT

Old lady. LOL do I look like im in braces? I look a little haggard here -.- Sleep debt.

Old man.

A KOI FOR A KOI ♥ 9/10/11

Sunday. Bacon creeped into my room and surprised me with koi! My craving on friday that was not fulfilled cause no koi in Boonlay. Somewhat hoping he'd come after canoe polo training. Wondering if he would. But scraped off the thoughts at the end. He totally just SURPRISED ME. My face was epic jaw-dropped. It was like 3pm and I thought Vanni came back and when the my room door opened.. it was him....omg I finally understand what it means by: The best things in life happened... When you least expected them to. Love.

Haha. These two.

Went town shopping afterwards after dinner bah-ku-teh... :)

CHEESE AND YUMMY RUMRAISINS

My boy is so sun-burnt. He said only 1 picture allowed. I took multiple shots so fast that all his face is the same... haha bleah.

Another happy day with bacon♥

Gosh, it's 2.23am now. Gotta do up my animal quiz for tuition before I hit the sack. Been so long since I slept this late.

P.S - My posts are so filled with pictures that blogger "eats" up my posts. Supposed to show 20+ posts on main page but now become 2 only. BACON DONT PANICK OKAY?! Go to my archives and see my previous posts if you wanna some sweet reminisces. Heh.

Six days

Last week I met bacon like 6 days out of a week. Although they say "Love isn't about seeing each other everyday but still loving each other despite being apart" but I still feel so loved and blissful having this meeting-bacon-6days-a-week♥

Monday:

His non-school day. Wanting to surprise me in the morning after his morning driving practice. Hoping to catch me while I'm still sleeping, in my sleepy cui haven't-brush-teeth pyjamas look. But I already had a hunch last night that this would have happened and so, after I woke him up the next day, I went to wash up already^^

Tuesday:

Was supposed to go Kbox double date with Lsm and Toby but they ended up quarreling and so only we both went. This time I sang mostly songs using analog mode. Secretly think I've made some little improvements hehe. And love the chemistry we had in some songs.♥

Andersons icecream. We're smarter now. Say no-no to scam! Btw, we'd Fruit of the forest. Pretty yummy!

This was supposed to be a nice picture. And look at how this idiot fed me which made me look like one super unglam idiot. THANKS ALOT. -.-

Back at you!

Wednesday:

Baking of fudge brownies and cookie and Koi surprise☀☺♥at SIM for my very happy boyfriend.

Thursday:

Zouk. Our first time clubbing together and his first stay-over at my house. The 厅长! So Friday morning I saw him again☀☺ Then he went driving test and then he skipped school cause he was still like half-dead. We made plan to buy val's bday present in the evening but he was too exhausted that he overslept. But it's okay☺

Saturday:

Val's bday! We bickered and quarreled quite a few times that day but nevertheless we still patched up at the end of the day. Still remember how I acted like mouse and the cute giraffe to coax him cos I made him mad♥

I'm sorry that sometimes I may be short-tempered, childish, insensitive, fickle-minded, quarrelsome, stubborn or playful. I'm sorry that sometimes we fight and hurt each other. If only you knew, every time we fight...I'll die a little inside. But what matters at the end of the day is that we patch things up and forgive each other's misgivings. The journey is long and not easy, but trust me, it's worth it.

Heheheh

Acting cute again. haha