Kicking and alive!

So my mouth was forced (almost ripped open), she saw my wisdom tooth, drilled it (my brain was shook), plucked it out as if she was opening a milo tin... then stitched it together. I was totally cool about it till the anaesthetic wore off. Totally pain like crap. I reached home, no food, gonna go buy porridge myself! Then took really small mouthful of the porridge slowly... Then quickly took the painkillers. My right face is now swollen and bruised. I think mainly was because my mouth was really being forced pretty wide open for 1 hour more than anything else. That drilling sound was really torturous. The thought of it makes me shudder now. My wound was bleeding the entire yesterday. Kept having to change the gauze. Vanni said I could put my wisdom tooth under pillow. Hehe even the tooth fairy principal will come. And I did. I guess there's no tooth fairy in this world. Lol. But anyway I'm feeling good today. I'm craving for pizzas and yummy chocolatey desserts now!

Anyway, take a look at my very chio wisdom tooth that cost medisave $588.

Big wisdom tooth and roots

Compare it with my baby molar tooth

MY SURGERY IS TOMORROW!

Mine is the horizontal one at the lower jaw.
I would love to remove all at once, but the date is too near to clinicals.
So i'll remove the right one first. I'm scared.

If only the wisdom tooth looks this cute and harmless...

• Tomorrow is here and i'm freaking scared. what if I faint halfway on my way home? What if my face is swollen like pig? (I'm gonna bring a mask...)
• Anyway, I just got back my results yesterday. FML.
• I can't go Bali with my cousins
• Clinicals starts next week, for 3 weeks
• Has's gna replace me for tuition this Sat
• I'm just feeling so down and scared now

I'm getting closer to my clinicals 2A and year two. This holiday I packed my A level stuffs, things to throw, things to give away... Also went back IJC to support Kamrun on A level results release day. How nostalgic. It was like as if I was going through it again. Sitting in that hall, excited, nervous, tramatized. I wondered, if I were to re-sit for it. How would my results be. That kinda tremendous stress, I really can't imagine. Anyway, let's just move on. Quit turning back and pondering over the same old things again and again. In life, you win some, you lose some.

So, for this past one year, what have I been doing? Study, study, study. I didn't even join any sports CCA. Can you imagine. I can't even imagine what I am in. And then tuition every week. Laughing and getting crazy in school all day with my tri-irrids friends. All the happy moments in school were the merepek, sad moments in school were the practicals. And also... that conflict. A lesson to learn.

He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.
—Bob Marley ; ~eletheowl

Fifth

Yesterday we were supposed to go IT fair. He went first then he said he's having a headache, didn't wanna squeeze back in. So I reached cityhall just to meet him and left. Waste my concession. So later we decided to walk till Dhoby Ghaut then walk to Bugis. We went shopping and we bought a bottom each. I finally got a new light denim shorts to accompany my usual denim shorts which was with me since secondary school. His Topman pants was 6x my shorts man. And it's funny I still can't forget how he told me he wanted to try squeezing into size 26 when I didn't even see myself wearing S. And those search for XS shirts -.- Crazy act one skinny shit sia.

So the whole day together was walking and more walking. On train back home played iphone's "Moron Test" I'm sucha genius, of course. Esp that how-the-turtle-get-the-apple question. Amazed by how I shook the phone and the apple dropped~ My first time reaching there.

Anyway, there's only 15 more days to clinicals. I'm not even prepared. Having practice tomorrow too. I'm gonna mug hard later. And...11 more days to my surgery :(

What's more important than staying alive, safe and sound, healthy?
All the news report are really heartwrenching.
I've watched the 唐山大地震 movie before and I won't forget how tragic it was.

Wisdom tooth

So today K went dental with me. The dentist is such a young and nice lady, I like. Okay then I took the Xray. Cool. Never seen a xray for the mouth one before. Tsk. It cost 42 bucks by the way. So it's total $58.50 Anyway, so the dentist said, I have three wisdom tooth and one on the upper right still growing. Could see the tip of the icebergs. So the upper left one isn't giving me much problem now. Except that food always get stucked there. So I can leave the extraction for next time. But my lower two wisdom tooth needs to go through surgery. Omfg, the first surgery/operation in my 19 years of life ever. It's a whooping $500-700 per tooth. Lucky its payable through full medisave. Sigh. I fixed one on 24th march morning. 4 days before clinicals. Pray that I won't be suffering with that swollen pig face during clinicals. The other one I'll leave it till when school reopens. Fml.

Plan was to have Bak ku teh for brunch. We both were starving after dental. Went around like lost sheeps in search for it. Finally I gave in, we took a cab there. The driver was kinda cute. He said he needed to get something, so he won't start the meter yet. So he left the taxi, we both were like? Keys and everything else there. Then he came back with the pandan leaves. So I was like, "hey uncle, have you eaten? I thought you went to get lunch, but how come you get pandan leaves. Lol. Pandan leaves more important than lunch?" He just answered me "Haha, I haven't taken lunch. Do you smell it? It's nice." Lol. Anyway we went for the bak ku teh. Guess where was it? It was there. He kinda ordered too much. Bak ku teh $10 per person is pretty ex isn't it?

Initial plan was to catch a movie and probably meet Farh and Oli. Ended up heading for research. What a depressing day. (Anyway he's such a asshole lol, he just keeps disturbing/annoying/irritating/teasing me.)

Shopping with Jasm

Somehow I like her to tie up her hair than look like one siao char bor. Heh

Oh gosh, what happened to my fringe
Btw, Tthat bg looked like some bacteria huh? Hah

I like this pic. Tho I looked retarded winking.
1000xmore natural than my second attempt to wink. Lol.

Last pic of the dayyyy. And those chubby cheeks, wth.

Shopping with Jasm. We haven't done that for really long. Catching up and stuffs. Telling me about all her lovey dovey. Happy for you girl.☺ We always have miscommunication break-down. She told me she took pic with J and cat on the kitchen floor. All along, I thought she was refering to J's mum and I'm like wow? Mum, J, her on the floor and brother walked in and stared -.- That's pretty much how we talked for 7 years. Hahaha.

Kit-kat days

Here comes holiday♥! the short break. Exams are finally over. Yippy. I can't remember much about the semestral exams cause I'm already now 1 week into the break. Anyway, my post-exam thoughts are always depressing. 3 more weeks of break left to read up all the year one work then it's the 3 weeks of clincals 2A. It's stricter, and it's real, under supervision. Sigh, can you imagine the tremendous stress we'll be in. Then I'm be left with 3 days then tada... I'll be year two :\ It means more stress and more and more. And then had to hand up the clinical diary. The term "diary" is sucha sweet deception.

Alright enough said about school. Review of the 1 week holiday I've given myself. Been out

• Shopping with belle for hours and got back my presents from mel. Then dinner at astons with yx and mel.
• Picnic with Tri-irrids♡, py and cheryl at marina barrage. Pictures next time. Well, Has will take forever to upload haha.

Oh man. Is that all? How come it seems so little :\ Oh I remember more...

• Shopping with julene ang. Happy girl with dresses paid by boyf. She didn't shop enough and went out for more next day with J.
• Singing K with Toby & lsm. Haha. Plus sneaking in Koi. Partyworld next time. We didn't sing enough.

Okay, sad life. I think the rest of the week was just sleep-eat-sleep. Totally had enough sleep. Trying to make myself sleep before 12am daily :) Other things I do were like tumblr, online movie, tv. Either home or school. Or just shopped alone for awhile when I'm otw home. Yippy. Short-lived happiness. And Saturdays left for tuition. On a sad note, I've been worrying pretty much all day about my wisdom tooth. Lower molar. Probably surgery required. Stupid few hundreds bucks, gonna have a swollen pig face for 3-7 days, porridge which I don't really like, pain pain and mega pain. Already booked the dental check-up this week. Awww. Scared. And I keep having lower backaches nowadays. Okay, problematic.

So much for my happy ending

This goes out to all of the people who have been broken but have been strong enough to let go. For the people who have hurt so badly that they felt they could never love again, but kept their head up. For those who feel like going back to their old lover would put all the pieces back where they belong and everything would fit, but accept the cold hard truth instead. For the people that learn from their mistakes and never stop moving forward, even when they take two steps back. For the people that wish loneliness wasn’t a part of them, but put up with it anyhow. For the people that are okay with taking up all of the room in the bed, even if sometimes it feels a little empty. For the people who wake up in the morning with no missed calls, but smile anyway. For the people that periodically miss the past, but are so much more excited for the future. For the people that have wounds still healing. For the people that have so much tied to their past relationship, but break those chains to start fresh. For the people that want to look back so badly, but focus on the road ahead. For the people that pick up the phone so tempted to call, but keep their dignity in tact instead. For the people that never wanted to let go, but had to. For the people that still believe in love even after all of the hurt their heart has endured. For all the people that gave up not because they were weak, but because most times it’s better just to let go. We’ll get our happy ending someday.

— (via jerybeanxo)

I want a walk-in closet.

I looked fat :\


Ice-cream is ℒℴѵℯ :)

Shopped the entire day with my shopping queen at bugis. Finally got a dress and 2 necklaces. I still fancy that pants which belle didn't fancy as much. Haha, we'd got different tastes somehow. Especially, colours. Lol. Then had dinner at Astons in Suntec, after much disputes. And lastly icecream that made me the happiest. Yay, holiday is awesome. But well, it's not gonna last. That was on a serious note, probably the real holiday is only a week, sadly.

My dearest MINTX ♡

Crap, I look fat :\

Just a simple catching up at Ani Cafe. Talk about guys, marriage, future. Desserts and Tea♨ But I'm a water person. No tea for me. Mintx with full head-count. We look forward to the next one, next year. We'll just keep on waiting♥